Muscle and Sinew, Past and Present, Fire and Earth

The shelf that holds my kitchen altar jumps from its left hook and swings down, like a pendulum, anchored by the right hook. I hear the crash and tinkle of glass breaking before I fully realize that my stones, vase, bottles, and mortar & pestle had slid down to the floor. I still held the large glass salt container in my right hand, the object I’d been in the process of taking down when the shelf tilted sideways.

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When Anger is Healthy

When I sat down in December to come up with my "word of the year"--what I choose to focus my energies on for the upcoming year--the word that kept coming to me was "Anger."

Anger is not a typical word of the year. Most folks I know, myself included, choose words with positive connotations: Intention, Boundaries, Balance, Love, Kindness.

Anger? I've been working on healing childhood trauma for so long, I thought I was beyond anger. I thought I was on to the "focus on my own positive spiritual path" place. I thought I didn't need to revisit my anger and rage.

But on second thought, I feel anger and rage on a regular basis. Maybe not as much as I once did, and I certainly can handle it better than my suicidal early-20s self did, but I still feel it.

And this year, I decided to be bold and embrace it. No, that doesn't mean I'm focusing on being a shithead to people, or not caring, or saying mean things. And I hate that I have to put a disclaimer out to say: Look, I'm embracing my anger, but it's not a bad thing.

Anger is not bad.

Anger can be transformative.

My childhood trauma? The *very key* to my spiritual abilities today. I would not be who or where I am without those events. I would not be able to readTarot or read energy. The events sucked. They were horrifying. They were so overwhelming to my childhood brain that I shut down, shut the memories away, shut it all the fuck off.

I don't want to do that anymore. I want to be angry. I want to embrace the pain and the fear and the fire.

I want to give fierce love and hold a fiercely compassionate space for anyone else who needs it.

You are welcome here, with all your anger, your rage, your pain. Your joy, your happiness, your love & light.

Does this resonate with you? Why or why not?