When I sat down in December to come up with my "word of the year"--what I choose to focus my energies on for the upcoming year--the word that kept coming to me was "Anger."
Anger is not a typical word of the year. Most folks I know, myself included, choose words with positive connotations: Intention, Boundaries, Balance, Love, Kindness.
Anger? I've been working on healing childhood trauma for so long, I thought I was beyond anger. I thought I was on to the "focus on my own positive spiritual path" place. I thought I didn't need to revisit my anger and rage.
But on second thought, I feel anger and rage on a regular basis. Maybe not as much as I once did, and I certainly can handle it better than my suicidal early-20s self did, but I still feel it.
And this year, I decided to be bold and embrace it. No, that doesn't mean I'm focusing on being a shithead to people, or not caring, or saying mean things. And I hate that I have to put a disclaimer out to say: Look, I'm embracing my anger, but it's not a bad thing.
Anger is not bad.
Anger can be transformative.
My childhood trauma? The *very key* to my spiritual abilities today. I would not be who or where I am without those events. I would not be able to readTarot or read energy. The events sucked. They were horrifying. They were so overwhelming to my childhood brain that I shut down, shut the memories away, shut it all the fuck off.
I don't want to do that anymore. I want to be angry. I want to embrace the pain and the fear and the fire.
I want to give fierce love and hold a fiercely compassionate space for anyone else who needs it.
You are welcome here, with all your anger, your rage, your pain. Your joy, your happiness, your love & light.
Does this resonate with you? Why or why not?